fake and ordinary

just like all others, i spent four years on these grounds
these walls, these halls, these rooms.. know that i did!
i too attended the same classes, had the same teachers,
read the same books and heard the same silly jokes
each face was the same, voices weren't different either.
but when i come back for a visit or two...
i feel nothing, nothing that's true!
the walls and halls are exactly like before
lockers haven't changed their colors either
chairs rest at the same old places
and the boards are again covered with markers.
teachers walk the way they did
they teach and talk the same sweet thing.
a smile comes upon the faces i see
greetings and wishes run back and forth
conversations are striked and carried out
new days and experiences are told with passion
heard with eagerness and complimentented with love
everything is the way it should be...
the way it always is with everybody
yet, there's no attachment.
the passion is fake and the smiles are ordinary.

paise se hai duniya

vahi subah, vahi raat hai
vahi thakaan, vahi kaam hai
suraj ugega aur chaand bhi dubega
panchhi udenge aur shankh bhi gunjega
behte jharno ki raftaar bani rahegi
teertho par insaano ki tadaat jami rahegi
bacho se baDo ka sneh bhi rahega
apne dosto se sabka mel bhi rahega
vidyaarthiyo ko vahi path padhne honge
pandit log bhi vahi maala japte honge
badlega kuch nahi, rahega sab vaisa hi
nav-varsh ke avsar par, kharchega bas paisa hi

surya-uday

kaali chaadar ki aadh se satrangi roshni ubhar rahi hai
raat ke aakhari pahar se bhor ki laalima tapak rahi hai
ye rangat, ye taaza nazaara, akhiyo ko khoob lubhaye hai
yuhi baith, aakash taakne ko ye dil lalchaaye hai
surya ki chundhiyaati kirne neele gagan ko jagaa rahi hai
dharti ke sabhi praaniyo ko apne sneh-prem se utha rahi hai

i lack self

questions are yet arising again
my friends, my acquiantances, repeat themselves...
"are you coming woman?!"
i hate to say this again n again
but the bare and honest truth repeats itself...
"my life is hell! my life is hell!"
i have everything in full
be it family, friends, or a night of no rest
the one thing i lack the most, is...
"a life to self! a life for self!"

doob gaye re!

taaza taaza pehla paani dharti ko jab choome hai
laaya laaya teri yaadein, dil phir apna jhoome hai
bahaar-e-mausam gaana gaaye, hum bhi chup na baithe hain
chaahat ka phir gota lagaakar, doobe doobe rehte hain

adhoori khwahishe

ye chand din jo aaye hain
phir dukh samait laaye hain
meri adhoori khwahisho ko
peet peet kar jagaaye hain

anjaane lamho se pehchaan chaahe
bichhde sapno se mulakaat chaahe
dekhi nahi jo raahe kabhi
un raahon par apne nishaan chaahe

ye chand din jo aaye hain
meri adhoori khwahisho ko
peet peet kar jagaaye hain

ugta suraj dhalta sa lage
behta paani jamta sa lage
rukta nahi hai samay kabhi
phir bhi ye jeevan, thamta sa lage

taaro se roshni jhilmilati nahi
baago mein khushbu lehraati nahi
prakrati ne khela, khel ye kaisa
saagar ki lehre gungunaati nahi

ye chand din jo aaye hain
meri adhoori khwahisho ko
peet peet kar jagaaye hain

anjaane lamho se pehchaan chaahe
bichhde sapno se mulakaat chaahe
dekhi nahi jo raahe kabhi
un raahon par apne nishaan chaahe

ye chand din jo aaye hain
phir dukh samait laaye hain
meri adhoori khwahisho ko
peet peet kar jagaaye hain

tu hi tu

har chehre mein tera hai chehra
har khushbu mein teri mahak hai
mujhko bahakna tune seekhaya
sambhlunga main, ye tera vaham hai

chaand

yuhi aasman mein rehna sada
chaand pyare, tu kabhi na doobna
raat ke andhere ko sameta tune
din mein bhi apni ek pehchaan bana

akela raahi

jis vyakti ko sara jahaan jaanta tha kabhi
aaj vo ajnabi ban rah gaya
jisko kabhi kisi vastu ki kami na hui
aaj vohi apni saanse bhi gin-ne laga

sannate aur ghutan se bhar gayi kutiya
ek khaufnaak haveli ban gayi...
rang birangi deewarein kis kaaran phiki pad gayi

melo se bhari duniya mein khamoshi kyun chhaane lagi
vo pyar bhari, maasoom muskaan, kis mod par kho gayi

hawa ka bahaav ruk sa raha hai...
samay bhi aage nahi badh raha
badlo ne tairna chhodkar barkha ko bhi rok liya

in raaho par akele chal, dhoop bhi satati hai
paseena bahay, pyaas badhay, aur dil ko bhi jalati hai

sawalo mein doobi aatma, dutkaro mein pali pehchaan

jab bhi koi avsar aaye, krodh ka para badhta jaaye
pichli baaton ki chhaw mein, kadvi baatein bak di jaaye
kamzor, bewafa, aur badchalan jaise shabdo ki aadh mein
khudko bachakar, use hamesha ke liye neech sthapit kar diya jaaye

ghar ki baat pachi nahi, dhindhora peet dala
padosiyo aur rishtedaro ke saamne, use anaath karaar kar dala
logo ke dhakke aur pathharo ki thhokre le jaate kahan...
le gaye waha, jahan pahuch usne khud se naata tod dala

Sept 25, 2005 - 11:19 PM

maza vs. saza

ishq jo maza deta hai, us maze ki tulna nahi ho sakti..
ishq jo saza deta hai, us saza ki kalpana nahi ho sakti

Torn, i stand!

the moments that were to go un-noticed
. and as smoothly as the morning breeze
. now stand Still and Haunt my life!
the Sheer silence Constantly echoes
. and the images Fail to go away.

my heart evokes a Pain within
. demanding to know, "why This way?
. why Now? ... now Where to stay?"

torn between my Need and Want
. what i've Known and eventually Learned.
it's hard to determine which is
. what. should i choose Life? or
. the long lost Soul?

each can live Without the other, but
. i need Both to be Complete.

tajurbe ki pyaas

zindagi ek samundar, samundar mein machhli
machhli ka jahan hai chhota sa vyaas (diameter)
lahro ke dhakko se bacha liya gaya
aur anubhav/tajurba ban gaya un-bujhi pyaas

do premi

patle aur tang raste, raston mein sang chalna

takraate badano se mann ka machalna

baaho ki ragad, haatho ki jakad

halki si muskurahat, palko mein paro ki fadfadahat

ansu to tapke, par dharti pyasi reh gayi

nami unki hatheli hi sah gayi

kankad-pathhar bhi sthirr reh gaye

ye kandhe jo unke kadam sambhaal chale

khula samundar, lahro ki takraar

barfili chotiya, hawaii toofaan

bhayankar jungle, aur pashuo ki chaal

amar bane premiyo se hokar/khaakar maat

ek humdum

dil se dhadkan juda
khane se bhukha khafa
kya kabhi aisa hua hai?
nahi hua hai! nahi hua hai!

ped ka sahara tana hai
yatri ka aaram chhaya se
dono hain adhoore duje bin
yahi prem ki maya hai

sargam hai geeto ki dhadkan
paani hai pyase ki sargam
jiske saath hum purn* ho jaaye
bas, vohi ek to humdum hai

*purn = poore, complete

bichhda hua mod, aaj phir mil gaya hai

aaj phir hum usi mod par khade hain,
jispar kuch din pehle se chal pade the...
aaj phir hum usi uljhan mein hain,
jis uljhan se laga tha hum joonjh chuke hain.

kehte hain log, har kisi ka gham,
mujhe apna hi lagta hai...
auro ke dukho ko apna kehkar,
mujhe rona achha lagta hai.
kehte hain log, duniya ki pareshaniya,
musibate sabki, bas meri hi karni hai...
galti chaahe kisi ki bhi ho,
ungliya to mujhpar hi uthti hain.

aaj phir hum usi mod par khade hain,
jispar kuch din pehle se chal pade the...
aaj phir hum usi uljhan mein hain,
jis uljhan se laga tha hum joonjh chuke hain.